Random Thoughts VIII

Hey guys, whats up! welcome to another random thoughts of mine. :)

Yet another update-less month. :) Actually I have a lot to talk about, ranging from funny thoughts to kinda serious one. But of course, I couldn't gather my fingers to blog.

Okay, first of all. Did you guys know about the guy who decided to kill himself after breaking up with his girlfriend? He jumped out from the 14th floor at 2 am, if i'm not mistaken. And he died around 9 a.m in the hospital. The said guy is known as Alviss Kong, i know this has caused an uproar to facebook users, mostly to chinese. And I was indirectly informed about it when one of my facebook friend posted up random status in chinese, but left out 'Alviss Kong' and R.I.P. I was like "Hey the name rings a bell" and I was, FREAKING SHOCKED to know that the guy who died, was the same guy whom I used to exchange my messages with on myspace like 2-3 years ago. (ya, had one before facebook stuff, deleted it) and he was like, dead?!! Oh sigh. What a way to end your life. Suicide.

45 minutes before the infamous flight, he posted on facebook, “Count Down For 45 Mins…What should I do in this 45 mins?”. His sister and friends responded to his comment, not knowing that he opted the easiest way to solve his probs, by killing himself. :( He also left the last note on his blog, (no where to find, probably deleted) which was closed after the suicide by his relative, i guess. And yep, from what I have heard, Facebook staff decided to close his account too.

You know, from what I have googled from the internet, he and the girl, were engaged in 4 months relationship before she decided to dump him. He worked as salesperson in TS, (and he probably did caught my attention because he is, even after his death, cutest real-life chinese guy I have ever met) and looking back at the pic, yes, I remember him because i did shop there before raya with my friends. Sigh.

And to tell you the truth, I also had this suicidal thoughts after going through a breakup, but like seriously, I don't have the guts to kill myself, nuff said, I am not that stupid. What he did was, most probably like will scar the girl's life forever, not to mention that he dragged his family to wall of shame.

Kids out there, suicide, is the worst way to end your predicament. You'll probably add more to them, not directly to you, but to your family and friends because of your selfish act. Think.

the girl.

Now I am listening to My Chemical Romance new songs, and Scarecrow caught me red handed. I am loving it. :)

Maybe one day i will grow attached to the album, like their previous ones :)

Say, I am pretty happy with everything in my life, currently. You know. :)

Random Thoughts VII

Hey, It's been a long time. I did not update my blog like, almost one month because I had no idea what to write~ Ya, I did a lot of stuff but I still could not make my self to post anything here, not to mention that I haven't use Engrissshhhh, i mean, like, six to seven months? Which made my writing skills deteriorate (as if, but honestly, I felt like I'm writing craps these days) Well, do not bash me because I have told you guys that I want to improve my Engrrrrissshh hence, my medium of writing.

So, enough of the crap. Let's get started with my random thoughts number seven. (Told ya I could write a novel, bahhhh~)

First, I am going to finish my days as an intern in a few days! Yay! I am happy because I get to lay my restless butt at home doing stuff for less than one month, but actually at the same time, I feel kinda sad leaving the wonderful place. It's a one and a lifetime experience, though I'll be introducing myself to my own battlefield sooner or later but its not going to be the same because as an intern, you'd get pampered a lot, hence one or two mistakes would be forgiveable but in the real life situation, you wouldn't.

Its not like I am not going to meet them again, well, ever but the chances that I'd slipped are at stake. So, what I could say is, I love knowing them, they are cool as they are and I know I have been a nuisance, but hey, cant say enough thanks to them because they made me realize, "You wont succeed if you walk on your own, you'll have to walk at the same pace with your environment's volatility, either at the same speed, or higher". Chewah. Poyo tak? :p

So, next one would be my review of classic Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte. Sigh. I have been reading that for a long time, but I haven't got a time to spend on its review (Its been a long time since the last review, and which I doubt people would read it) but here- Actually, I was tempted to read this because Bella (yeah, Bella Swan as in Twilight...i know i know) reads this book too. To be frank, Wuthering Height was hard to read, considering it's from 19th century as I was not familiar with some vocabs and the use of a word, which sometimes I found it very awkward and funny. Do I have to mention, er- penetrating? lols. If I use the exact vocab in anyway nowadays, i'd be ROTFLMAO-ed. Yeah.

Okay, for one who never read this book, do not expect that Wuthering Heights is a romantic love story, no- this book is about selfish, gore, vengeful and vile characters who fall in love with each other, and commence disastrous events to their surrounding because of their selfishness. Wuthering Heights follows a character named Heathcliff, who is in love with his counter-selfish lover (which reminds me of myself, oh my God), Catherine Earnshaw from his childhood, to his death at his late thirties. At that, I would say this kind of story shows the evil side of love and the book, in my opinion, states the very selfishness of one's love- no, to be fair, it has to be called 'infatuation' but honestly, I love it so much that I googled everything WH, watched the movie (which I totally hate) and listened to who's-Bush's song.

Bought this along with Sense and Sensiblity at RM8.50 per book. hoho

Next~~~~

Do I need to mention my korean obsession again? Nah, I don't think so. It makes me wanna learn korean so much- (for your information, I took japanese classes and I kind of can communicate in basic Japanese). My recent obsession is Mary Stayed out All Night! All because of my honey honey honey Jang Geun Suk, the korean HYDE. :) Mary is such a lucky girl because she gets in a marriage contract with two damn hot guys. Enough said, so you could tell that I am into these kind of reverse harem. Buahahahaha.

Ya, what else eh? haha..Oh! My Chemical Romance new album. I have listened to Na Na Na, and I quite like it but seriously, I love them old stuff triple times more than this one, it's like you are listening to something mainstream-ish although they ARE in the mainstream, but their old songs from I Brought you My Bullets, You Brought Me Your Love, Three Cheers For the Sweet Revenge and Black Parade sound more emotional and lyrical, (even though Black Parade songs started to smell like mainstream) compared to Na Na Na... they kept repeating the same line over and over in one song...aigoo. sigh, old times. And I think they sacked their previous drummer. But whatever, I'd still love them even if what they did is screaming 'monkey monkey monkey' in their songs :P )

Danger Days, out in November.

Okay, done here. Am not bothered to correct anything here so, LET THE KILLJOY BEGIN! :D bye!

D.I.Y Apple Cider Vinegar Acne/Scar Mask and Toner :)

Credit to bubzbeauty :)

Hello peeps!

I watched a vid from youtube on Sunday and I decided to make the d.i.y mask and toner (after went through countless of comments about it). So, i went to Carefour last night to buy the ingredients! Thought of sharing this recipe on my blog as it works on me! My skin feels smooth even though kinda smell like crap ( 10 minutes on my face..uh)

Okay, first! the mask :)

And the Ingredients are:

1) Apple Cider Vinegar - Hard to find this one, and remember do not use ordinary vinegar!

This one is hard to find, though.

2) Honey

3) Cooled down green tea- not the processed tea like Lipton..etc ( liquid, not the raw tea leaves)

4) Sugar (white sugar)

Instruction :

1) Mix 1 tablespoon of apple cider vinegar to 2 or 3 tablespoons of cooled down green tea ( if you have a sensitive skin you should mix it with 3)

2) Stir well before adding 5 tablespoons of sugar.

3) Add 2 tablespoons of honey before adding another 2 tablespoons of sugar.

4) Mix, and walla! The D.I.Y Mask! :)

How to Use :

1) Make sure that your face is all cleaned up before applying the mask.

2) Massage your face with it for at least 5 minutes (remember, be gentle to avoid any skin irritation!)

3) Leave in on your face for another 10 minutes. Then wash it off.

And for D.I.Y toner, the Ingredients are as follows:

1) Apple Cider Vinegar

2) Cooled down Green Tea ( water)

3) Olive oil

Instruction:

1) Mix 1 tablespoon of Apple Cider Vinegar to 3 tablespoons of cooled down green tea.

2) Add 2 tablespoons of olive oil.

3) Stir well.

How to use it :

You can use it every night before applying your moisturizer.

Updates :

Quite a lot of you guys coming to this blog for the recipe. And I just have to say this. If your face is in terrible condition, please. Do not try this mask. It will irritate your skin a lot more. I suffered for terrible acne-attack last year, and this mask was not helping me, at all, it felt stingy and hard on my face :( However, the result may vary as we all have different skin types right?

My skin while on accutane - 2011

Current skin - 2014

The Undomestic Goddess by Sophie Kinsella

Bought this novel last week, and put my hands on it today.

And I couldn't stop reading it. :D

This novel is my bestest-unconditional-yet-randomest-choice of book, ever. PERIOD.

And while reading this, I was literally picturing every detail of the err- the cooking part (and literally salivating over foie grass with apricot glaze, orange-chocolate souffle with two homemade sorbet, Egg Benedict or whatever-freaking-Greek gourmet and I was fasting. C-RAPPP.)

And I shall say Sophie Kinsella is officially listed as one of my favorites. (Though I can't seem to register that the main character's name is Samantha- why Samantha, again?) The plot, is pretty interesting, however, too much fairytale thingy are going on and it made me "uh, it should be this way instead of that way" and "uh, so random...wth" .But I laughed my butt off because of the it lol.

Ah, and no steamy scenes! Perfect for teenagers, romance can be sensually depicted without any pornographic description! :D

I'll give Undomestic Goddess my 4/5 stars! :D

Bah! One down two to go!

Random Thoughts VI

Welcome to Random Thoughts number 6.

What's on my list?

Currently, I am reading these three.

a) The Undomestic Goddess by Sophie Kinsella.

b) Ten Things I love About You by Julia Quinn.

c) The Secret Diaries of Miss Miranda Cheever by Julia Quinn.

Yep. Three books at once. That's because I was too busy with my life (oh-so-fake) on previous weeks and I just had to drop it one by one. Ah. a) The Undomestic Goddess by Sophie Kinsella choice? It was unplanned. I just went inside MPH bookstore and bought the book along with 2 comics. And that was pretty random because I never liked contemporary romance but at the exact time, I thought, hey why not?

Oh, most people might already know that WE CAN'T READ NARUTO ONLINE DUE TO COPYRIGHT INFRINGEMENT! Bzzz. You know how I love Naruto, since I was in secondary school. Bah.

However, I have listed these 4- Yes, four mangas to be read. These manga can be found in mangafox.com :D

a)Yuru Koi by Yoshino Aki

b) ぎゅっとしてチュウ; Gyutto Shitechuu by Chiba Kozue c) Tau by Tachibana Kaimu

d) 夜の学校へおいでよ！; Yoru no Gakkou he Oideyo! by chiba Kozue

All these are shoujo (romance for teenagers) - as a matter of fact, I love shoujo though I wouldn't mind reading stuff like Naruto, but in the meantime I would want to pamper myself with romance, much. :)

:)

Past these days I was very down with myself, I kept thinking about all the things that happened. I felt sick and tired. I was, yes once in the same situation few months back, but this was more than what I could bear. He asked me to remember Him. I know, few months ago, I refused to do that.

But now, I feel like I am a new person inside and out. I don't know how much longer I could stay like this. But I hope I can do it.. for myself and my happiness.

I admit that when I was going 'crazy' at that time, I know all of them, mum, dad, bro and sis knew what happened. I felt stupid, actually. Mum said this to me bluntly, " do you want to destroy every single thing that you have? If he doesn't want you, then be it! Just think about yourself and the people around you." My tears fell silently. And, she is right. I am still young, I have to think about myself, first thing first.

God is merciful. Allah s.w.t is the Beneficient, the merciful. Though this I couldn't say anything yet. I hope He shows me the right path. I hope this will be the right thing for me to do. I am not a very religious person, I admit that. But true, He is willing to help. Allah is with those who are patient.

"Do men think that they will be left alone on saying, 'We believe,' and that they will not be tested? We did test those before them, and Allah will certainly know those who are true from those who are false" (Quran, 29: 2-3).

We, as a human being will be tested by Him with countless trials, problems. In a situation that we might feel that we have a little too much burden and little less hope. This, is tiny. Just a small thing He tested upon me. And yet, I failed to remember Him. I failed to know him. But I am not going to repeat the same mistake. InsyaAllah.

I truly hope that I could have a right person, with me. Together, he will guide me to the right path. One day. Hopefully.

My Love is for You, Lord.

I changed my blog link. I erased everything on facebook and I will change my phone number tomorrow. And I am going to dump everything you gave me. But one thing for sure I can't delete you in my mind. Of course I can't because what we been through in 4 years, when I was that pretty (lol..hahaha...whatever) and then the time you work and you got fat too. haha. (Now your super cute, right? I love what you did to your hair. And I am ugly, now. wow. We're totally different..) I can even remember everything. But now I know its all gone. I know that you are having someone new in your life, someone prettier, someone nicer, and someone that can be there when you are sad, while I'm stuck here. When I knew the truth, I was being crazy. This isn't happening to me. And I want to kill myself, seriously. I took a knife and I try to cut whatever I can cut.

Then I realised.

I couldn't.

I am not a God. I can't take my life as I please and I know for sure I will regret it FOREVER. But I have HIM. I have HIM to depend on, to cry on, to tell everything to. I calmed myself and I pray to HIM. Yes, to HIM. My world isn't at the end, yet until HE calls me back.

I beg for your forgiveness, Lord.

I humble myself to You.

This hurt so much, this, what You lend to me, and You took it back. But I know that everything You did, everything, has its own reason.

I do love him, but You are, the MOST I love. You are the MOST I wanted to be with. This is not the end. This might be a new start to a happy life. Even if I come back to You before I could even cherish that moment, before I could even live that life, my faith is upon You.

Random Thoughts IV

er.. is it IV edition? Already?

Today I logged on to facebook. I read some comments, replied to some, and I clicked 'game' button' to play Three Kingdoms Online. I logged into the game. I looked at the left menu. Then I felt something is missing. Where the heck is my troops? I mean? All of them? Like seriously serious? Then I clicked the 'message' button. I opened my message box. I clicked the 'new message'.

"Wak_Meng (619,370..yes. FEEL FREE TO ATTACK THIS GUY) attacked _ _ _ _". Twice. I got hit twice. All the spearmen, the clavary, the logs, traps, all gone.. T_T ohhh my months of hard work..all gone in a blink. And I left my TKO for only 4 days due to internet connectivity problems..I was like, no way. NO FREAKIN WAYYYY!!! Uh!

Sigh.

Next, we move on to Married by Morning from Lisa Kleypas. I have finished the book, and I didn't have time to make a review of it. And I moved on to Lisa Kleypas's old novel, Give Me Tonight (and I didn't know she wrote a time travel novel) which I had to put it down due to the setting. I don't like Western, means, Cowboys, Texas. No, not my thang. Sorry Ms Kleypas. If only the main characters were transported to Victorian or Edwardian era.. I'll be glad to read those. Well, the reviews will come later, weekends..i guess.

And I am tired. Like If you give one day to sleep, it wouldn't be sufficient. T_T

Oh yeah, I forgot to mention something. These days, I kinda menyampah with one of this particular person on facebook. I dunno why but everything, all of posts...it makes me want to puke. Its like your being fake. Seriously fake. You got angry with someone, let it out. Do not use Idioms, such2 etcs.. You're fake. You make us think that you're happy with your life whatsoever, but seriously everyone knows the truth. You're not that kind of person. Sgt Poyo, babe. And ahh.. to think that I don't have a clue that some of your posts were directed to me, you wouldn't know it. -_-lll

And I don't have a life. T_T I SUCK. WHATEVER.

Stress is bad for your health

You know, I've been in a stressful environment for past these years. And that explains a lot, why am I becoming a pimples breeder. Not to mention that I have lost so much amount of hair, as it keeps thinning and I feel my body is tensed, and tired every single time.

So much going on here and there and I have told you guys before that I am a very complex person. My brain works that way. Can't help the fact that I am pretty much an over thinking person. Sometimes the thing I think of is so stupid and I can't even explain why I think a lot about it.

I have been experiencing this bad acne situation for one and half year, pimples started to pop out here and there. It makes my self esteem go down to the pit and I seriously hate things that require me to get out from home- my safe zone. I hate it when people keep staring at my face. Why? Having pimples on your face doesn't mean that you don't take good care of your skin! I hate it. And I hate bright places. People without skin problems, you guys would not realize how bad it is. Not until you guys experience it. Naturally, having bad skin problems will severely affect your life. Period.

But then I found this a from youtube, this one guy.. he's suffering from bad acne problem. He tried a product called Accutane before he 'found out' that the med is bad for him- he's allergic to them. After few months, he met his dermatologist and he had to be admitted to the hospital because of severe breakouts and trust me, if you watch the vid you will feel sorry for him. I did.

And that makes me realize that my problem is not as bad as him.

Mine can be cured-it is just a matter of time. Scars off, I'll be good.

But his problem would take years.

In his latest vid, he said..'do not stress, it's bad for your health' and he's right. I have to stop stressing over stupid things.

And I would do it. Right, from now on.

Random thoughts II

The title makes this post- like some kind of game or stuff. Random Thoughts II, Random Thoughts III..VI..bla bla bla.. huh?

Time : 7.17 am (you see it right)

Place : Kitchen?

My random thoughts for today are:

1. The journey to Penang.

2. Guys

3. Bishie

4. Otoko

5. Megane Danshi

P/s : as you can see, number 2 to number 5 are about guys, guys, guys, and guys lol. Just kidding! ( but I still want to talk about guys, i don't care because this is my blog so I get to post whatever I want)

Its Tuesday. Tomorrow we will be going to Penang for some sort of 'housemate' vacation. To tell you the truth, I don't really have the heart to go on vacation-ing because I really want to be at home. I just think this isn't the right time to go ga-ga somewhere else cept making adequate mental and physical preparations- where else? At home. You guys know that my intern-ship program will start (huh, the torture) on 1st June, right? That would be on next Tuesday, to be exact. And minus today, I only got less than a week to prepare myself for the showdown. It's all about psychology, guys. But I am not ready at all.

Okay now let us leave the serious part, and huh, I really want to talk about guys, I mean, what is my kind of guy? What constitutes as handsomeness for me? What do I really want in a guy? and the question goes on and on... (in your dreams, otaku). My otaku friend, Yuu-chan posted me a link on my facebook wall, "La Corda D'Oro, Primo Passo". Actually, I have heard about the anime a long time ago, and the same case, it always has been 'I was not interested at that time, because I fear of being dejected by un-interestingness of it'. But then, I was bored and again, I've decided to try the anime. And I can't stop watching it. REVERSE HAREM is always my kind of guilty pleasure. Lol.

Reverse Harem is very much like a Harem, full of girls and only one guy (sheesh not my type of anime, I'd rather watch Doraemon instead of watching a harem genre of anime because girls in harem anime are so stupid and they act and they talk stupidly and I know girls out there would agree 100000% with me, unless she is a lesbian). But difinitely not a reverse harem, where bunch of bishounen guys (infact the more the better) fall in love with one girl (yes, ONLY ONE O_O). And this is what happened in La Corda D'Oro. Five guys falling in love with a girl. Muahahaha.

My favorite would be Yunoki Azuma-sama. You know, I love guys with a long sleek hair. I love them beautiful, I love them pretty. And to be more extreme, I would want them to be prettier than me. But actually, it is very hard to find a guy that look exactly what I have described. I think such kind of guy does not exist at all. BUT, they exist in anime and manga. T_T .Sigh. And that is pretty much why I ogle and drool over manga or anime characters that fit into descriptions. And leather. SEPHIROTHH-SAMA, KYAAAAAAAAAA!!!

Lol.

Personality?

Hmm.. I love them to be mean, I like them to tease. I want them to be nice to all, but be different with me. That's why I love Yunoki-sama, at first he was no favorite, but after several episodes, his true form is revealed. He is nice, in fact he is a role model student and is the student representative (typical anime character) and he's rich...yada yada yada~ but then he holds a secret. He only reveals his true self to the main girl and guess what, he automatically become my fav. lol.

Okay, that's all for today. My random thoughts will continue..later on.

LOL.

Kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!

Random thoughts.

Date : 22 May 2010

Time : 7. 06 pm

Location : Home

First of all, if you are reading, (you-know-who-you-are), i miss you so much and I want you to come home. S.o.b.a.d T_T

Okay, I only got another 1 week to go before my internship program. Well I hate it, but the more I don't want it to come to me, the faster it would be. I am not ready for working life. I hate stressful environment, and I hate working under people. I hate being under one's power. Such life is not meant for me. I want to be a lecturer. I want to have control. Students...zzzz. Actually bout the program, I am worried about something (serious) but I've done nada- to overcome it. Well typical me. And that's all I'm going to say about this.

Well, we are going to Penang next Wednesday. Yep. I am assigned to find a car ( not actually 'find' a car, more to 'beg' my parents to lend us a car). It is still in progress ( still in 'begging' process) and I am truly sorry if I fail. ( But I can see the lights and butterflies and beautiful gardens ooo O_o) lol.

What else? (you are not supposed to tell much, but no one really cares, this is your blog, mister)

Ah. Yes. Detroit Metal City. One morning (4 am to be exact) I was bored and I went downstairs to watch dvds. I came across this dvd (untitled O_o) well actually a dvd that was given to me by Wan lol. And I crossed path with Negishi-kun. DETROIT METAL CITY.

At first, I thought "this is going to be another stupid movie" but never mind that, "let's give it a try, would you?".

4.15 am

Bla bla bla... Mother sent her son to Train Station *yawned*...yada yada yada...stupid song.. yada yada yada...

4.20 am - to the end of that Movie.

I was laughing (guess what? like a madwoman, again. Alone. 4 am in the morning) my arse off. lol. Okay, nothing much but the taglines are super funny. How can you not laugh to "He can say RAPE 11 times in 1 second, he's a legend"? lol. I know it sounds so obscene and the main character (Negishi mode) looks very sissy but I think you might want to try DMC. lol. And there is the anime, too. Which is freaking funnier than the movie.

Okay, summary from wikipedia;

Soichi Negishi is a shy and gentle young guitar player / singer who dreams of a career as a pop musician. Dreams don't pay the bills, so he's ended up as the lead singer and lead guitarist of a death metal band called “Detroit Metal City.” In stage costume he is Johannes Krauser II, rumored to be a terrorist demon from hell, to have killed and raped his parents. Another song's subtitles suggest that his fans should murder everyone, in a comic parody of the genre (if all his fans killed each other, he'd have no show). Negishi despises DMC and all that it stands for, but so help him, he's a terrific performer and can't walk away from that. As DMC's star rises Negishi tries to satisfy both worlds, but can't.

One thing that awed me, how did they manage to get Gene Simmons to act in this movie? O_o

1/2 Prince

This manga caught my eyes for numerous times but somehow I was quite not interested with this manga, probably because ;

a) er.. it's a Manwha.

b) I don't like MMORPG-based plot (say no to Ragnarok)

c) Shounen?

d) The art is so-so

e) All of the above.

Well, the answer is e) All of the above. Yeah, I don't really like Manhwa for example Hwang Mi Ri's manhwas because I don't like the art. Well sorry but I am the kind of people that reads because of the manga/manhwa's arts. I did not say all Manhwa got bad arts, no- I have read one manhwa that made me blinked my eyes because of its beautiful art.

Somehow my boredom asked me to try 1/2 Prince. And I made a quite brilliante- ehem good decision probably because ;

a) I was literally laughing like a madwoman while reading this manhwa.

b) This manhwa makes me want to try MMORPG game (Holy- er I hate online games)

c) I want 'Meatbun' for myself hahahahahaahhahaha :p

Yeah, its d) all of the above. But trust me, I still can crack-up a lot during my depresssing moments, thanks to 1/2 Prince :)

Source : Wikipedia

1/2 Prince (1/2 王子, 1/2 Wangzi, Half Prince) is a Taiwanese manhua by Yu Wo and illustrated by Choi Hong Chong. The story takes place in the year 2100 A.D. where humans have developed highly realistic virtual reality games. The protagonist, 19 year-old female college student Feng Lan, is challenged by her twin brother Feng Yang Ming to play the newest popular virtual reality game - Second Life - without using the advantages of being a female character in the game. She decides to play as a male character and prove her skills as a swordsman. In the game, she makes many friends and her adventures begin.

cuteness!!!