Friday, October 14, 2011

Accutane Diary I

Whats up.

I am taking Accutane, or its other name Isotretinoin as my last resort, after all. Warning, do not consume accutane if you are pregnant, or plan to conceive. YOU CAN NOT HAVE A BABY, AT LEAST 2 YEARS FROM THE DATE YOU STOP TAKING ACCUTANE, BECAUSE YOUR BABY MIGHT BE MALFORMED AND HARMED (physical malformation and mental retardation) IF YOU CHOOSE TO CONSUME THIS DRUG- PLAN TO HAVE A BABY WHILE YOU ARE ON THE MEDICATION!!! IT ALSO CAN CAUSE OTHER SEVERE SIDE EFFECTS SUCH AS CHEST PAIN, DECREASING NIGHT VISION, FATIGUE, HEADACHE, HAIR LOSS, VOMITING, DEPRESSION, SUICIDAL THOUGHTS, HALLUCINATION- AND THESE SIDE EFFECTS ARE MOST LIKELY TO COME LIKE, FOR YEARS AND YEARS- BE IT 10, OR 20!!! EVEN AFTER YOU STOP TAKING IT!!!!! IT'S GOING TO HAUNT YOU FOREVER!!!! AND I AM NOT KIDDING!!!!!!! :(

Most doctors in specialist house or skin care centre do not care if you're going to undertake this medication, what they do care is money. ACNE SUFFERER COMES, MONEY IN. Like myself- she didn't really care. She just prescribed me with 20 mg Accutane, Antibiotic and some allergy pills whatever and sprayed my pimples with something (i dunno what it was). When I asked her what are the side effects, she just told me- ah, a lot, like back pain, headache. That's all. The 10 minutes so called consultation costs me up RM70. Yeah, I am stupid. But due to my eagerness to clear up my skin- I became stupid. I know I have no other way. AND YOU KNOW, YOU GOTTA SACRIFICE SOMETHING TO GET SOMETHING. AND I HAD TO SACRIFICE MY HEALTH. :(

I have been on the med for almost 2 weeks, or 12 days to be exact. I admit that my face is getting better. Quite happy with it. Some people say it can cause breakouts for the first few weeks, luckily, i didnt experience it ( maybe because mine was already severe, so when the new pimple pops out, i dun really notice).

But the SIDE EFFECTS WERE PRETTY SCARY.

List of what I have experienced.

1. Back pain - considered as common.
2. Headache.
3. I became super tired, I couldn't move for god sake.
4. Depression.
5. Mood swings. TERRIBLE MOOD SWINGS.
6. Difficulty to breath. Whenever I am angry, I cant breath.
7. Decreasing night vision. I cannot drive at night, because I cant see a thing!
7. WORST OF ALL. ONCE, I WOKE UP BECAUSE I HAD A CHEST PAIN- AND I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO DIE.

I KNOW. I KNOW. DONT NAG ME. :( THIS AINT HEALTHY ANYMORE. I KNOW)

Though, I want to share my photos- from a week before accutane- til today.


This was a week before. The pain was unbearable, small acne formed big nodular acne. My face will bleed- after every wash. The whole face was swollen. I went out like this and got a lot of stares from people. The pain, the depression, the suicidal thoughts made me stupid enough to sacrifice my health over my skin-well being.



This was after a day taking Accutane.



And these were captured on Saturday. The first one -with flash. Face become a little too much flaky.

And I dont need to hide anymore- even tho I got a few occasional stares, dun really mind it- its getting better.

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